sad ending...

wrong date cuz i wanted to post it ytd...

today is sat nite… tml is mother’s day but yet it ended up unhappily becuz of a dinner… I suddenly feel that I drop tears easily when it cum to family problems… why? I’m curious… e story goes like this…

2nd sis wanted to celebrate mother’s day by bringing my mum for dinner… in e end my mum feel tired so my sis sugge she buy back for us… in e end she didn’t cum back but ask for delivery which need 50 bucks in order to ask for delivery services… my grandma went for wedding dinner n my dad dun like Japanese food..he is a very traditional dad..he onli like Chinese type of food… so in e end onli mi my eldest sis n mum eating e 64bucks of sushi n don my sis ordered…she always do things without asking..we tot she is cuming back to celebrate like one family eating together but in e end she didn’t n my dad feel tt if she doesn’t wan to cum back she might as well dun order…is like u wanted to celebrate wif mum n u r not there… she my dad n eldest sis started quarreling wif my sis over e matter tt make mi drop my tears at e corner of my sofa… how I wish we can celebrate happily instead of an unhappy ending… is always like tt… my tears kept flowing down without them noticing… if not they will say why I cry over such a small matter… I dun like my family to quarrel…I hate those scenes. n I realize my dad’s presence always make mi upset cuz he will nag n scold over small matters… I hate tt…

Thoughts suddenly flash thru my head tt I wanna blog… I cant keep it inside tt I wanna type it out… family school frenz… my life onli involved this few things… school… I dunno why I juz feel tt sch is getting tougher but I’m not as hardworking as b4… nw there is no more study break for common test n I got to finish studying b4 week 7… which is 3 weeks time… n I got lots of sch work to do… how m I going to study it? I juz feel lazy… I cant see any bright future for mi… juz feel upset abt everything…

I hve 2 best frenz n one buddy… but we onli meet each other once in a week or once ever 2 weeks… both of them hve their own things to do…sch bf their frenz etc… we wont hve much time for each other…

My poly mates… onli spend time wif them in sch other than tt not much… they got their own sec sch frenz also… juz feel lonely suddenly… a sudden feeling… I wont feel tt often de cuz I’m someone that is quite independent… so I dun rely on anyone… n I feel that I dun trust relationship anymore…ah bi ask mi dun feel that way but I juz cant… I nv hve a serious one b4… when I wanna hve one… things r always not rite for mi… I juz hate it but is okie… I dun need it…I will b strong…

this is such a deep thought n feeling entry…