went to watch transformer today.
with yuan, tiff, dennis n also hung n linus cuz they got nth to do also
a nice show. like it alot. tot it will be a boring show.
so now hung, linus, tiff n dennis saw yuan.
dunno wad they got to say on mon.

was very upset on a particular day tt i cried.
dunno why it make me so upset.
yuan told me his dad want him to study uni overseas
all e way to a country name russia.
his plan is to cont to study engineering
n his dad told him tt russia is e best at engineering.
if he leave, it will be 2 or more yrs.
n i'll be all alone in spore.
i dun wan tt to happen... in e end i cried.
i''m so afraid tt he will leave me alone
although we can web cam n he will fly back during holidays
but it will be different if he around wif me
someone to care n around when i need help etc.
is really a very big different.
he ask me to look for a local uni for me so tt he wont hve to go there
i looked up e net n realised there is not many sch offering engineering
tears started to flow again. cuz i noe most likely he will be goin there.

i gave him all e links ytd. n he found one tt is somehow okie.
he called his dad askin tt if tt sch is okie.
his dad ans him, if u dun decide on ur own, then i will decide
if his dad decide, then it will be russia.
without him wif me for 2 or more yrs will be terrible.
i cant image wad will happen to us in e 2yrs.
a new gf for him? distant between us?
when i think of it, i'm terrified.
i got no money to study overseas.
is too ex. my family dun hve e money but yuan dad hve.
onli he can support yuan overseas.

started talking to him again on tt topic.
i asked him too many times whether he will go overseas.
he say wont but i'm afraid. he became frustrated.
he was so fierce, complaining abt me, being scared of this n tt then nv do anything to it
he say onli noe scare, nth is done to remove e fear in me.
complain so many things tt i feel tt i'm such a lousy gf in his eyes.
so upset. very upset.

today he said sorry. i didnt blame him for complaining.
as i'm really not a good gf.
i nv change when he ask me to.
now everything is fine(i think)
he most likely will be studying in spore after army.