I dunno wad happen to me.
i shld b happy tt we r still tgt.
but i feel very sad.
I feel tt we r so drifted apart.
no longer the same us.
all hve changed.
although he nv leave me but i cant feel his love
I feel like i'm juz a fren to him.
maybe i'm someone tt need his attention.
but i dun get any. i wan to tok to him
but i scare i disturb him doin his work.
if not later he say he cannot focus again.

so many things changed. change until i cannot accept.
every nite i will feel down. maybe is becuz i'm alone.
all e tots will keep coming.
sharon manda ask me dun let go.
I love him till i cannot take it if i'm being left alone.
i feel so empty. so tired. dunno wad to do next.

now i dun wish nite to come.
use to tok to him every nite. can hear his voice
now on msn also little bit only. only ask him things tt he can ans in a simple way.
he busy. so cannot reply long long.
cuz i noe he is tired of toking. he dun like to tok on phone.
now things changed so i can only tok to him on msn.
cuz he will b busy doin his work.
i try nt to disturb him by askin him to call me
i wont dare too.
i cant control my tears. so depressed.
i try to b happy in e day. nt to upset anyone.
shld i stay on? can i hold on to this rs?