Now i feel that my life is in total boreness.
everyday wad i do is go sch come back do my sch work
slp wake up then this routine again.
is so boring but i hve no choice cuz i cant stop doing sch work when there is a need.
i wont stop doing juz to play.
i'm nt that kind of person. all shld noe me.
i will study finish first b4 i play.
if nt i will feel so bad n insecure.
i will try to finish some of it before i play.
i super long nv go out the whole day juz to relax.
i feel so upset. can i change e way i m?
cant i be like someone tt will play more than study more when exams come?
i'm sick of this kind of life.
but i juz cant change e way i am. i'm born with this kind of character.
i will hve to study all e way till my dec holidays come.
cuz i got test almost everyweek after sch reopen.
i got to do my stats assignment, lab report etc.
i think i become slow in learning n doing things.

i feel so lonely. for one yr plus darling always beside me when i'm studying.
kind of use to it.
but now i hve to study by myself again.
so boring.
now every weekend i always stay at hme do my sch work or write notes.
staying at hme juz to do my work if not i will b too tired to go out.
reading others' blog make me feel so jealous.
they got so many events happening.
feel so happy for them. then me? at hme almost all e time except goin sch.
i used to hve e urge to go out but now dun hve.
rest at hme becoming a big part of my life.
now ppl ask me go out i feel either too tired or lazy to go out.
juz like e bbq ytd. i feel like goin but too tired to go.
in e end i stay at hme n darling tok to me for awhile.
think sch will be e biggest part of my life now.
friends getting lesser darling so far, so sch is e only thing i doin now.
i dun wish things to be like tt.
sighs...