A story of mine......

Saturday, February 24, 2007

This is wad one of e horoscope i read say:
Your brain is telling you to hold on to what you've got,
but your heart is telling you that it's time to let them go.
Can you take the middle path instead?
It'll be a tricky act,
but you can find a reasonable mean.

it in fact wad i m now... whether to let go or to hold on...
after a good cry ytd, i decided to let go n give up.
frm now on there will b no longer him in my dictionary.
i dun wan to make myself feel upset anymore.
joelle ask mi if i really sure of giving up
i replied ya, dun wanna hve a burden anymore.
so ya no one bothering mi now.
i'm living in my own life now.
no one interfering, no one disturbing.

Friday, February 23, 2007

today woke up wif a bad dream...
dreamt of everyone ignoring mi...
upset mi so much...
i woke up crying...
started to think of something...
make mi cry even worst...
e fear i ever had is ppl ignoring mi...
then still got such a dream...
i pour all my tears out cuz i'm too upset
until i cant control my tears...
there's a action tt i wont forget...
this make mi upset e most...
i regretted... truly regretted...
i juz dun wan things to get worst...
pretend i didnt say anything...
i give up... truly give up...
things drifted means it hve drifted...
no longer will b e same...
i told myself not to cry but i still cry...
lousy mi...

why i didnt go OIAP?
if not i can hve a 3 1/2 mths break from all these...
today will b an unhappy day...cuz i hve an unhappy start...

met my sec sch classmates today...
we went for lao yu sheng!!
hahaha...fun!!
miss all of them cuz we seldom meet..
everyone have their own frens to hang out with...
Mr Tan is here too...i miss him too...so glad to see him
he retired alr...hope he will stay happy always...
manda havin exam tml...so study hard yea...
they came over to my hse after eating...
play cards again...
but then i was pissed off by their "paisehness"...
juz becuz they nv bring oranges they dun wanna accept e ang bao...
is juz a small blessing frm my mum...
so forced them to take it...
ask them play cards they also pai seh...
i juz love shi yong n jia hao... too bad jing heng went back
if not he will b so eager to play...
then atmosphere will b happier...
but anyway is over we still hve a great time...
love all of u..

slp for 6hrs after i came back frm chalet...
dunno why during chalet juz got an upset feeling.
tiff ask mi if i'm okie, i say ya i'm okie...but in fact i dunno wad to say.
things like started to change...
we began to drift apart... nth much to talk...
tt e sad thing...i wont want things to turn out like tt...
so frm e start i shldnt tell him?
i'm giving up le...
since we r separating into 2 different semester...
i will forget soon...
i will miss everyone of u...
love u ppl...

Thursday, February 22, 2007

today is my class chalet...
at down town east...
rm no G1726...
blogging time is 630am...
haha...all of them slping now yet i'm blogging... haha
i cant slp when i'm in chalet de...
if not i will feel giddy... cuz i'm lack of slp...
so i chose not to slp...
i got to wake them up at 930
cuz we got to book out at 1030...


frm e start...
we meet at 2 to buy bbq stuff...
in e end most of us reached at almost 3...
haha...poor patrick went to ntuc to look for things first...
bbq as usual... photos update later... wif sharon n tiff...
after tt a series of games...vodka is e forfit...
sing yan been e reddest among all of them...
followed by hung n dennis... haha

after tt w went to e park for a stroll n ghost stories telling session...
almost all of them feel eerie n ran back...
so i still left 3hrs to go... wad can i do next?

Tuesday, February 20, 2007

oh today went over to manda hse for visiting...
got 6 ang bao...cuz her dad frens came n i'm there...
haha...yiling n manda came over my place too!!

tml goin chalet... yay!!! have fun...
sat then go to my dad side for visiting...
ang bao...is my main motive...
thurs meeting my sec sch frens to lao yu sheng...

can i noe ur ans?
juz dunno why...
although i noe wad will b ur ans,
but juz wan to noe frm u...
i will not b upset no matter wad....
be strong my dear cindy...

Sunday, February 18, 2007

today is e first day of chinese new yr...
happy chinese new yr too all!!
nth much happen today...
as usual went to grandma hse for visiting...
lots of things to laugh abt...
tml will be a slackin day at hme...
maybe goin to chalet on 21 feb...
goin to hve fun!!!

Saturday, February 17, 2007

Exams r finally over!!!
i m so happy...
bought a new belt today!!!
n i saw manda blog...
she hve such a wonderful v day...
wif such a nice bf...manda i envy u...
roses chocolates romantic dinner cable car...
so lovely...
i felt so upset now...
is okie my dear cindy i can still b as happy as bee
nth can make mi upset...
i'm strong ya...

Wednesday, February 14, 2007

Happy Valentine's Day to all!!!
love u ppl...

all alone on v day...

Tuesday, February 13, 2007

yay!!! my hatred ccta is over... n i think i can get A le... haha
left wif instru but i got no mood to study le...
last paper... jia you cindy cannot b lazy....
but i'm juz too lazy to study tt...
tml is V day n my dad's bdae...
advance happy bdae dad!!

only my pooh will be with mi always...
no one else...

Saturday, February 10, 2007

yay i finished 2 papers alr... left 2... tues paper is my hatred.
can someone help mi to study haha...
think is impossible
this yr v day i'm all alone again.
but all alone at hme studying
dun feel like studyin at hme
maybe go outside to study...
anyone wanna acc?

my acmb A gone due to one 10marks qns
i did wrongly, forgot wad coding strand means
to copy e thing or to translate
when i step out of e room i remembered...
is okie, i still got ABC to get an A.
jia you for instru n ccta!!!

Thursday, February 08, 2007

exam tml... jia you cindy... u can do it...
i feel so much better after letting out e thing i kept inside...
is okie tt there will be no return..
i dun mind, i juz wanna tell u...
i m so relax now...
thanks dennis, tiff n sharon for keepin e secret.
thanks for all ur care.
i super sleepy alr... shld i revise one more time?

Saturday, February 03, 2007

today is my last day of lesson b4 exams start...
kinda of sad...
someone is leaving mi... 2 yrs le
been so close to mi...
care n love mi...
situation cant change...
i hve to accept...
i will miss everyone of u... no longer same lect wif mi....

i hve to think of something now...
does he appear in my life?
do i think of him?
do i care for him?
do i like his presence?
wad is my ans?
i hve to think... think deeply...

a miscommunication tt cuz someone to leave mi...
i really regreted not ans e qns seriously...
tt make mi lose tt someone...

Friday, February 02, 2007

exams r coming but yet got no mood to study...
always thinking of playing, going out slacking etc...
but i hve to start studying now...
CAUSE my exam start on my study week...
ahhhh... 9 feb 10 feb 12 feb n 16 feb... ahhhh....
i got no faith in ccta cuz there lots to study...
acmb i hate application qns...
but still hope to do well... i can do it...

studying half way i suddenly tot of something...
it was weird y i tot of this qns...
i'm juz curious.
if u like someone but e someone dun like u
but said will try to like u n wanna get together wif u
wad will b ur reaction? be wif e someone? or NO?
sighs...
got a weird feeling nw... dunno how to say.

i wanna study outside but i scare i will waste tt day juz like tt...
how study at hme? or look for someone to study together?