time pass very fast.
one week pass again.
exams getting nearer.
tml muz start studying biostats.
my first paper.
finish writing necessary acb notes.
took so long to write.
next week still got sch.
wonder how to finish studyin all e things.
where got time?

today half day write notes. at nite decided to take a rest.
suppose to go out with sharon n joyce.
but i haven finish writing my notes so nv go.
i feel so tired. i muz tolerate.
but sometime i stress till i burst into tears.
why i'm so weak. i cannot take stress.
so lousy. why others can study uni n dun feel stress?
why i cant b like them? why?
everyday i go sch i see them so happy.
but i so stress. why they like dun feel e stress?

study study study!!!
i miss my darling.
he also studying. study till headache le.
poor thing. dec faster come!

I feel super stress for the exams.
i dun think i can finish studying so many things
i feel so stress. i feel so slow. hard to understand things suddenly.
i took 3 days to write n read my textbook for 3 chpts of phy
so many things to note so many things to read.
tt 3 chpts to me is e most difficult.
so stress!!! i goin crazy soon.

how can i feel less stressful?
i plan e things i need to study from now till e date of each exam.
not enuff time!!! muz study fast which i feel is impossible.
i need time to rmb n understand so tt things can go into my head!
everyday i need to study. until exam time.
i planned. but i feel so stressful to study everyday!
but i got no choice.

I feel tt i go to a wrong sch.
a bad sch. lousy sch. lousy systems
lousy lecturers. i hate this sch.
no test marks or papers given back.
how to learn from mistake?
expect us to noe wad we wrong?

i feel sad tt i didnt do well for emcb test.
i study hard for it. but yet i do e same as others.
i feel i getting more stupid.

I meet feli hoo today.
she pass me her textbooks.
i gt to write notes for exams.
eat dinner wif her today at iciban sushi.
cuz got craving for sushi.
n tt e only one with selling more sushi

i feeling better emotionally alr.
i think becuz of some reasons ba.

I got a guest in my tagboard.
I dunno who is this guest.
i saw e tag. i felt something wrong.
got an uneasy feeling.
i dunno how to describe.
love is simple. but once u break it there will b a scar.

another test coming up on the 23oct.
i got one report to hand in on 21oct, one assignment on 24oct.
i got one week left. report is grp work, only will discuss on mon.
assignment i found n read a paper. goin to do on tues.
i dunno how to critique tt paper.die. anyhow crap.
tml got to read my lecture notes for my test.so many things to noe again.
this few weeks i nt feelin too good.
every morning got gastric problem.
n nowadays i always have headache n feel giddy.
i feel tt i become super weak.
may be is stress n my mood tt cause all these.

m i feelin better emotionally?
ya i think so.no longer crying so easily
.feeling better. changing e way i look at things
looking forward to exams over. n exams over i completed a sem.
having holidays, think i shall go work.dun slack at hme.
earn money to go brisbane spend next yr may/jun
i no longer feel like giving up anymore.i treasure my darling
no longer feel tt i wont b happy w/o him around.
I can still do e things i used to do.
I love him. n tt wad i noe.

I noe he busy so i nv disturb him.
i also reduce my msg sent to him.
i want him to focus on his studies nt feelin distracted.
only when he's resting or free i tok to him for awhile.
after tt i let him do his things.c
uz he also need to relax, watch tv, read comic n slp.
beside spendin his time studying, he also need to rest.
he also need his private time.
last time use to do feel tt havin me he hve to reduce his private time
cuz most of e time he will spend with me.
now i feel tt i very selfish last time.
i dun let him do alot of things cuz i expect him to accompany me.
making da xiao jie pi qi.in order to make him feel happy.
i let him do wad he want.
try nt to b like wad i use to be.

life will juz go on. time pass very fast.
soon sch will finish work will b my life.
turning older n older each yr.
think shld update some photos.
my blog is so dull.

during my study break, went out with e gals!

Taken in sch during lunch. haha.

erm mon got mb test.
i got to study for it.
i dun like mb. dun feel like studying.
ytd meet sharon joyce for lunch.
we tok alot. now so many frens tell me their stories.
i noe i'm nt e only person having this problem.
in a relationship, somehow there will be a expressive n non-expressive person.
being the non-expressive one will feel tt is okie nt to contact all e time.
as long as we love each other can alr.
usually they dun hve too many actions.
silent... they think tt got things to say then tok nth then dun need to call.
no action doesnt mean dun care or dun love u. becuz they r non expressive.
their words got very deep meanings in it. nt juz surface. u muz really understand them
in order to feel assured.

as for e expressive person. tt person will feel tt if a couple nv contact there is something wrong in e rs. but in fact is nt to e non expressive one.
expressive feel tt is impt to show actions so tt love is there care is there.
no action make them feel tt e partner no longer love them or care abt them.
n start to worry.
expressive need alot of concern frm e partner. need attention.
no reply frm e partner will make them feel very upset.

to e non expressive one, too much msg calls care n concern make them feel stressful n burden.
when they cannot take it they will give up. they feel tt is too much for them to handle.
they will feel tt their partner shld look for someone tt is able to return so much care n concern back to them. trying to let go of their partner to look for someone else. but in fact their partner dont wish to find another person as they feel tt their partner is e right person for them juz tt they got different ways of handling things. as long as one adapt, nth will go wrong. is e same in every couple relationship. seldom to find tt there r both non ones couple n both expressive ones.
i feel tt if both non ones e relationship will be stagnant boring n they wont bother much abt each other. both expressive ones they will take things for granted n too sticky to each other tt their world only contain 2 of them.
being one expressive n one non one, things will b different.
rs shld hve up n down, too smooth something is goin wrong.
so expressive ones learn adapt, non one feel e love frm them n also still love them.
this kind of relationship shld b better although things is slightly harder for e expressive ones.
but to me e expressive ones r willing cuz they love their partner for being who they are.

so in order to maintain a rs. e expressive one muz learn how to understand e non ones n noe
how they feel abt a situation. they cannot keep pestering e non ones. muz lighten their burden
make them feel tt havin this rs is happy. no stress no burden n there is still love n care.
tt why e expressive ones always hve to learn things n understand lot of things along e process.
able to adapt to e non ones behaviours n feelings, adapt to changes.
is usually e expressive ones tt will understand n adapt.
is always a tough process for them but sooner or later they can adapt to it.
n this will really maintain a rs.

i ask expressive n non ppl abt this. their replies are really e same. expressive ones r e ones tt learn n understand during the rs. e non ones r those tt remain e same. they remain e same in their way of dealing with things.

i'm trying to adapt, learn n understand along this rs process.
time is so impt to me. although is difficult but i'm willing to undergo this process
cuz i love him n love e way he is.